I wrote this a few years back. I hope you enjoy.
My growing up years were turmoil for me, because my dad was in the Navy, we had to do a lot of moving. I would say that I went to 5 different Elementary schools, one Jr. High school, and two High schools. For an already shy, and reserved person, having to start over all the time was quite difficult. My parents, for a good part of my growing up years were not Christian. My parents sent my brother and I, and for a while, my sister, to Sunday School, and Vacation Bible School for a long time. And, although I memorized some scripture and participated in all the activities, it didn’t really mean anything to me. I really wasn’t sure there was a God, and I really didn’t know much about who this God was anyway.
When I started Jr. High School I started the two most difficult years of my life. I was used to being made fun of, because I was used to always being the new kid, but what happened these two years was more than I could handle. I was abused physically, mentally/emotionally, and sexually by my peers, and I didn’t know how to deal with it. I decided to put God to the test again. Ok, I’ll try turning the other cheek, and see what happens. I didn’t see any fruit from this, and I was in tears almost every day, not to mention the English class in the 8th grade that I almost failed because I couldn’t deal with what was going on.
The Summer after my 8th grade year, in August of 1977 my parents sent me to a Christian Camp called River Valley Ranch. Not only was it refreshing after such a hard two years of Jr. High School. I actually felt loved by the staff, and the other kids. They actually accepted me. God was really drawing me now, and I was beginning to understand the depravity of my human condition, which made it necessary for a savior. One evening at camp I invited Jesus into my life. I remember it being such an emotional release, that I cried, which is something I never allowed myself to do in public before this time. I really didn’t understand what I’d done, and no one was there to disciple this new babe in Christ, so I didn’t grow much after this time.
When I was 18, we moved out to the Seattle area and I became involved in a church where I learned that I needed to do more if I wanted Jesus to be more than just an acquaintance. I needed to read the Bible and I needed, most of all, to talk to Him. I needed to pray. I learned how to praise the Lord also. I started to do all of these things, and I was daily trying to get closer to the Lord, because I wanted more than what I had. This is when I believe I really started to grow and know Jesus as not just my savior, but as my friend and my Lord.
I wont say that everything has been easy since I met the Lord, but I will say that it would have been a lot harder without him there to come along side me and help me through.
If you would like to accept Jesus as your Lord and Saviour, and ask him into your heart, to forgive your sins, please pray this prayer.
“Lord Jesus, I believe You died for me and that you are alive and listening to me now. I repent of my sins and ask Your forgiveness. From this moment on, I decide to live for You and no longer for myself, to do Your will and not mine. Make me the kind of person You want me to be. Show me the way to the Father. Now fill me with the Holy Spirit, Who will teach me how to live for You and how to tell the world You are my Savior and Lord. I love You, Father, Son and Holy Spirit.” Amen!